Be Kind, Rewind

After much thought and usual fretting, I finally did decide to head back to MICA, for the alumni meet, albeit just for a day.

A day for me was optimum.

It was just enough time to meet everyone, remember the good times, but not the bad.

It was just enough time to realize a lot of my mistakes, but not dwell on them.

It was just enough time to have fun, but not waste away.

But without doubt, MICA would have to be the two most complicated years of my life. And perhaps the only two years I would have regrets about, and wish I had a chance to relive. Because for once, I knew my misery was of my own making, and my complaints were plain silly.

For the first time in my life, I wish I could undo and redo a lot of things.

So the one day I spent on campus, every time I met a MICAn, a particular thought would pop up in my head, wondering how I would’ve been different to that person, given the chance, to rewind two years.

This is to you, MICAn.

I would have liked to have known you better.

I would have liked to not pretend to have known you.

I would have liked to have given you a chance.

I would have liked to not have run in the opposite direction, at first chance.

I would have liked to have judged less.

I would have liked to have been judged less.

I would have liked to have talked more.

I would have liked to have been talked about less.

I would have liked to have paid attention.

I would have sometimes liked less attention.

I would have liked to have shown my love for you, more.

I would have liked to have hurt you, less.

I would have liked to have liked you, just the way you are.

I wish you’d liked me, just the way I was.

I would have liked to have known MICA like you.

I would have liked to have been a MICAn, like you.

 P.S. I don't know if I managed to bring out all that I felt in that one day, in the correct way. It's just a funny feeling, for a rather non-emotional person, to realise that I actually do love MICA, and MICAns, and really do wish I had more time, for once.