Thursday, February 17, 2005

The End of an Era

It was finally here - the day i had both been looking forward to and regretting for a long time. Till now, I just couldn't believe it, school couldnt possibly be over. I mean, I just walked into school yesterday!! I still remember thinking of it as the biggest place in the world, getting lost on my first day, yet still loving this absolutely wonderful school.

Over the years, I've come to hate this school as and institution more than anything, but still loved getting up each day and meeting my friends. I guess sometimes the fact that the school just didn't care about us actually worked to our advantage, giving us a lot more freedom than we sometimes deserved.

I seem to have spent my entire lifetime in this school. I have made the most amazing friends, and sometimes the worst, i have made the best decisions of my life, and aalso the worst. But most of all, I've made mistakes and learnt from them, and grown amazingly in that process. (And here I'm not talking about my height!!!!)

I have loved my school life, and now I'm scared to leave it behind. How can I step out into a world where I just don't know what's going to happen to me? Where there won't be a report card at the end of the year stating the simple words - "Promoted to next class" whose importance I never realized until now when there is no next class to be promoted to?

And there's one more thing I'm scared about. I know I'll be one of those kids who'll never be remembered the moment I leave the school boundary, but I don't mind that. You can't expect each and every child in a batch of 180 kids to impact the school. But did I actually make an impact in my friends lives?? Will they remember me ten years from now, the way I probably will remember them? Or was I just a girl who they hung out with simply because I was there for their entertainment, or that I was there to do the talking when they didn't want to open their mouths?? That's what really scares me...

But whatever I might have done, there were countless people who have left imprints in my life. Well after the farewell and citation ceremony, i was in the most nostalgic of all moods, and I did the only thing that makes me feel better (No I didn't talk!!) - I wrote. Sso now I've started writing about my entire school life and the people I have shared it with. It's not an interesting story or anything, just something to remember all my friends by. So if you think that you've played a significant role in my life, then you're sure to be mentioned. Order for a copy of that portion today!!! Limited stocks available!!!

As you can see, I am in a better mood right now. I guess it's just that i realized that life goes on, and it does so for the best. I will stay in touch with the people that matter, and will enjoy my uncertain life to the fullest. And most of all, I will continue to do the one thing I have always been famous for - talk!!! So keep those aspirins handy!!!

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