“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.”
I don’t know what Anonymous had gone through to write that. But I believe her/him. In a world where I have been doing everything in my power to get rid of my past, and start anew, Google suddenly decided to help me out last night, by disabling my account, with no prior intimation or reason. Just like that.
Just like that, the past eight years had disappeared into thin air. My blog no longer existed. There wasn’t the slightest trace of it to be found anywhere.
I cried and mourned the demise of a dear friend, this blog.
This blog has been by my side for over eight years now. It’s been there through the good and the bad, specially the bad. I’ve changed, and it changed with me. At times when all seemed lost, when I was alone, the blog was there, making sure I was alright. It’s been ignored, it’s been forgotten about, but it bid its time, waiting patiently, always there when I returned. It’s been an outlet for all my frustrations, my sadness, my joy. It’s been my most loyal friend, in the worst of times.
My account was restored, and my dear friend was returned to me.
My dear blog, you’ve had a long and tiring life.
Thank you, for always being there for me.
I think it’s time you finally rested.
I think it’s time for me to finally let go of all that was my past, and celebrate all that I have now. I’m scared, petrified might be a better word, because I’m not sure of what lies ahead. But I am sure of what I want, and I can only hope that life can find it in itself to give me that one chance.
To start anew.